moving on 08/29/2011
well it has been awhile, many a whiles I think, today actually feeling like I have aged 15 years. Since I last posted I have separated from my husband and moved to Saltspring Island. What a process that has been, I am now employed at Bruce's kitchen as a prep cook but I am also navigating life as a single mom and artist? What is that? when is it ever gong to be that again? Is it possible? I know there are others doing it but when will I get to that place? So many questions, no one to answer me, except the sound of my own voice, someday........ I know I must be patient and respect the process but when does one find the energy to leave one, the job I love that pay's the rent and feeds the kids to the one I love that I have never fully embraced, that let's me spill my self out on to my panels. I feel like a dabbler that has some talent and some vision but no real direction, who could with a life like mine I say? After an extremely emotional day, with tears and a heart that felt like it was breaking, my youngest daughter took a picture of me, " your face look's kind of blank today " she say's? I reply "it was a hard day and I had some tears" I look at said picture and see that yes indeed grief does make us age, what a sad tired face, I don't want that to be me....... CommentsLeave a Reply | AuthorHi I'm an artist and a stay at home mom who is setting out to create beautiful things that will help me to have the job I have always dreamed of. I spend my time living in the city during the week and in the Gulf Islands on the weekend so that my children (and I) can experiance the best of both worlds. I have very strong ideas on how I want to raise my children and I would love them to see how we can create the jobs we love. ArchivesAugust 2011 Categories |
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